To The Person Who I Didn’t Ask To Stay,

The time that we had was a fleeting moment, a time we borrowed with the Gods to let us have this chance, a short-lived fairytale not to have a happy ending.

The time we shared was our little infinite. You made me feel things in a short span of time. As cliche as it sounds, you made me feel the queen of the world—that no one else matters; that I was a piece of gem too rare and too precious to have.

But then things changed. We have fights—fights we didn’t use to have. Petty fights that turned into big arguements. And then that was it, you had enough of me.

You love me, but you left. And I choked on all the words I wanted to say. And maybe that’s why I didn’t ask you to stay for one more time.

After all, how could I? When I was only making you miserable? When you think that I care about the difference in our social classes? Maybe it was a matter of pride for you, but I couldn’t care less. I tried saving you, I really did. I gave you everything but I wasn’t enough. I can’t save you and maybe that’s why I let you walk away.

I’m sorry, I didn’t ask you to stay. I’m sorry. Maybe you wanted to hear that I’ll fight for you and I’ll never let you go. And I did, a couple of times, I begged you to stay. But I’m tired of fighting for us. What’s the point if I’m the only one who still want the idea of us? It was just not me in this relationship but the both of us. It was you who gave up on us. As hard as it sounds, this is why I let you walk away. And this is when I say goodbye.


Promise Me

Promise me you’ll think of me during sunny days and remember the happiness that we felt when we’re together for the first time; when we found our way back into each other’s arms; the first time that we kissed; and everything good in between.

If it’s one of those gloomy grey days remember the way we fought about the smallest things; the day when we had out very first big fight and the consecutive days that we just keep in fighting. All the petty jealousies and my insecurities; the way we let our pride tear us apart.

And promise me, when it rains you’ll think of me. The way I cried my heart out when we broke up for the first time. The way we cried when we thought we’re gonna be torn apart by my mother. The way I cried when you told me you’re not sure if you still love me.

But as the night approaches and the stars appear, remember our deep conversations; the deepest and darkest things that we’ve shared to each other; the way we argued about life and respecting each other’s opinion in the end; the way we found light in each other’s darkness; the first time that we walked together under the starry deep blue sky.

And as you sleep, forget about me and move on. Because all I am is a memory. A memory of what we were—of what we could have been.